Jordan

Out of hardship and struggle he came to me
I held him as I walked

I knew him without sight

I felt his tiny movements as he struggled to grow into my likeness

My eyes that wanted to greet me

To see my love returned in our first gaze at each other

My mouth that longned to cry out for me

To yawn in my arms as I held him close

My ears that longed to hear my familiar voice

Calming him in a world of chaos

We fought together, my likeness and me

We fought for our life together and all the moments were promised in our minds and in our secret talks we shared

Knowing our fate,

like a tree leaf in autumn gently falling after its life and before the winter cold

with beauty and grace he left me

before my eyes saw me

Before my mouth made a sound

Before my ears heard me

To spare me the pain of goodbye and leave me to imagine him taking some of the burden of sorrow off my back

For our time together was so close and precious and intimate

My likeness knew me as much as I knew him

He left his body for to comfort his family's eyes and hearts so they could have a memory of him

But he left me with the most special gift he had to give

I got to hold him, nurture him, love him, talk with him, and live with him from his first heartbeat until his last with a bond like no other

My likeness left me to live on and remmember our time together

My precious son, I shall carry you with me in my heart for infinity

I am so proud to have the honor of being your mother

And forever your mother I'll be